Dear readers, so i'm back again to update about my skin condition after so long. Sorry, I've been busy with works and stuff, don't really have time to update. I'm sure for those who followed me in my social media platform probably know that i've been suffering with acne for the past few years and now it is post acne scars that left. I've been doing a lot of treatment to lighten it up, patiently. 

Here's a clearer photo of my redness scars and some sunken acne scars. 

I'm happy to say that my skin are getting better compare to last time. At least, there's not much active acne popping out from my face. Once in a while, if i didn't take good care of my health/skin/hygienic..there is some congested pore and will causes me to have 1-2 pimples. But it's normal because it's not that kind of "actively" one. Therefore, i'm still working hard to achieve a healthier skin. Patiently. 

I know there is a lot of people out there who are suffering from acne/ acne scars. 

Here is a solution for you guys who are looking for a medical proven, trustable product to apply on your face. Due to my sensitive skin, i'm very careful to all the skin care i pick. 

I always make sure that it is fragrance free.

So far, i've found this Hiruscar post acne gel which is suitable for post acne scars like me.

For those who know me in person, I'm sure most of you know that I've been suffering from acne. I blogged about my acne skin journey 1 year ago. You can refer back all my story- HEREEEEE. After years of fighting, my skin are now finally free from acne. Of course, there is still some pimples popping out on my skin during my menstrual cycle (which is totally normal) Others than that, my skin are currently under control. 

After recover from acne, the next things i concern about is my scars and skin texture. So, i went for skin lasers. So far, it was all good..my redness reduces and my scars got lighten up. Of course, you know me.. i'm not a girl who will settle for less. hahaha. That is the reason why i'm constantly looking a solution and remedy to improve my skin.

Recently, i've came thru a collagen supplement drinks for SKIN. They certainly do not harm. So, i decided to give a try. Here's a short review that i've done earlier with Lennox.

Dear readers, I'm back for my skin updates. 

For those who know me in person, I'm sure most of you know that I've been suffering from acne. I blogged about my acne skin journey 1 year ago. You can refer back all my story- HEREEEEE . My skin was acne-free after consume Roaccutane for one year, but then I suffered from post-acne; SCARS. I tried so many things ever since the acne went away - may it be serum, mask or even good skin care products that could cost up to thousands per set. Unfortunately, it doesn't help much. That's the reason why i go for Skin Laser 3-4 months ago.

 I did my laser treatment 1-2 months once, It's my 3rd times already this time. So far, everything is good. My acne scars got lighten up, especially the redness on my scars. I've no idea why, but the laser treatment actually does help to reduce my redness *surprisingly* I'm happy for it! At least i can go out without any makeup on (just sunscreen) now. Thank you Dr.Rachel (www.skinartclinic.com) so so so much!

As usual, numbing process before the laser. So that i will feel less painful during the treatment. 

You can read my first laser treatment post - HERE

HELLO我回来了！

上个星期刚做了第二次的Laser Treatment，是治疗Scars的。

因为自从我的脸蛋被痘痘入侵后，遗留了好多痘疤，拼命想办法拯救，一直好懊恼。

虽然Laser后会有几天需要特别照顾，但是看到康复后的皮肤...一切都值得的。
第二次Laser后的肌肤又比上次好一点了，好开心，好满意！

这些是刚做完laser第3天的脸，来个close up照

照片不是很清楚，不知道为什么。

这次尝试一点新东西，不写长篇大论的blog了

今天来个短短的影片吧！

我真的很少很少在Video说话，每次都放music和放字幕而已。
所以很多人以为我是哑巴！哈哈哈 ＊开玩笑＊

其实我不是哑巴，我会说话的孩子哦，只是比别人害羞而已！哈哈哈哈。

原谅我，我不是很习惯对着镜头讲话。所以讲话一块一块的。
（看了就知道）

你知道吗，Video Blog看起来好像很容易，但是真的一点也不容易。哈哈哈

可能对我而言很难吧，5分钟的短片...我录了整整几个小时。Replay了又delete, Replay了又delete. 录完过后还要Edit,我用了两天！哈哈哈哈！可能是我很少edit video所以比较noob. 不过，熟能生巧，下次会更好的，对吗？不知道为什么对着镜头整个人超紧张（自拍跟讲话真的是两回事），整个人很僵硬，讲话也怪怪的。而且讲话也有点困难，因为嘴巴长了两个ulcers…(T_T)  超痛的！所以。。。就这样咯！

我知道很多朋友都想知道我到底是用什么产品的，所以影片里有介绍。
今天不给大家打广告什么的，放一百个心！哈哈哈哈
这些产品都是我自己出钱买的。真的真的真的真的！
我个人很爱买护肤品，但是不是什么护肤品都能用，因为我是敏感肌肤。
所以每次买了好多最后都只是放着，或者送给朋友。所以啊，找到适合的产品真的很开心的！迫不及待给大家分享一下厚～ 

好了废话少说。欢迎观看难的的Video Blog，但是别给我丢我鸡蛋。

准备好了吗？不准笑我！！！(OvO)

大致上就是这样，希望这个短片可以解答你们的疑问。

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谢谢你们花了4分钟的宝贵时间观看哦。哈哈哈

好了，有时间可以留言给我..告诉我你们的想法，意见，问题好吗？

如果喜欢的话，下次我再做化妆Tutorial 的video。

好了，今天到此为止。拜拜！(^_−)−☆

I'm sorry for this long article, but i really wanna share all my feelings out. 

Hello!大家好，我回来了。不好意思让大家久等了。今天又要跟大家分享我的皮肤进展了。好长的一篇哦…..准备好读了吗？好啦，我知道很多人都很心急想知道我的皮肤的进展如何。我也很迫不及待想Blog，只是有时候真的太忙碌了，没有时间也没有什么灵感…哈哈。这段时间内有很多人wechat我，email我，inbox我告诉我他们的皮肤状况，问我应该要怎么治疗。虽然我不是医生，但我会尽量分享我的经验给大家，希望可以帮到其它面对痘痘问题的人。

其实我的皮肤状况真的困扰了我好多年，从我19/20岁那年..本来一个痘痘都没有的脸蛋，突然火山爆发！那时的我很颓废，也没有去看医生，因为我没有太多的知识..只是随便找一件美容院洗脸。可是并没有好转，美容师还跟我按到脸上留疤痕。每次一想到要去Facial了就想哭..因为又要按痘痘了…然后反反复复的几年，痘痘都没有好转过，换了几个美容院，几个医生，有些医生还把我脸搞得更糟。直到去年，是我脸最糟糕的时候，我去看了Dr.Ting,吃Roccutane后将经一年痘痘才停止。如今只剩下的是痘疤。

若你们没有看过我的皮肤状况可以看看这里 Skin Condition。

我问过很多医生，他们都建议只有Laser才可以淡化凹凸洞，所以我决定做了。但是我也很害怕，很担心，不知道我的脸适不适合做Laser。因为我的皮肤很敏感，动不动就会泛红，发痒。也很担心做了laser后，皮肤会变薄，会弄巧反拙长痘痘，皮肤会烂掉之类的。还有疗程后的保养会不会太麻烦，会不会不能做这个，不能做那个的，哈哈哈哈，毕竟那个是‘脸’啊…担心是当然的。可是consult了Dr.Rachel…经过深入了解了以后，我才放心把我脸交给她做了。为了让皮肤康复，什么都值得的！

People often say that having acne is no big deal, but that’s far from true. I hate my face so much, constantly having pimples, and with all the acne scars that I have on my face doesn't make me any better. Everyday is a torture for me to wake up, knowing I have to face a long day ahead with that ugly face of mine. I'm dying inside. It's like a curse sometimes, I feel like I cannot go on in society because I am constantly being judged and looked at. Acne really ruined my life these years. 

Nobody knows. My skin looks just fine under my makeup + soft skin mode. 

Who knows what hide under all these stuff? I don't wanna hide things. 

Okay, I'm not afraid to show you.  Do you know how serious is my skin before this? Everyday looking at the mirror with super terrible skin condition. All i want is just a "Normal skin".. but it seems hard to me. 

“世界上没有丑女人只有懒女人” 这句话是真的！曾经我是个超级无敌懒惰，不照顾皮肤的女生。你知道吗，我可以懒到连Toner, Moisurizer都完全没有用的人...只是随便用Cleanser洗洗就算了。我对皮肤保养，皮肤照顾这方面的常识可说是一窍不通，也没有去研究…所以才导致皮肤突然冒很多暗疮。（我看这是其中一个原因）

It's another skin updates today. I know a lot of people out there who are facing the same problem with me. So…hereby.. I'm here again to blog about some of my experience again. I've so many to SHARE about my skin. I can type a 10000000 words when it comes to "my skin problem" ...but i'm afraid no one willing to read. LOL! So Let's make it short, straight to the point. I think most of you all have already know what i've been through right (my Acne problem)? If you don't, can read my previous blog posts. Click here -----> The Ugly Truth, 化妆品底下的秘密, I'm here to answer the "WHY"& Current skin condition

Hello everyone!

Alright, it's time to update about my current skin condition as requested. 

I received a lot of message asking me about my skin condition, some even comment in my Instagram asking me to blog about my skin condition. So yea... i assume a lot of people out there is quite curious about my skin progress more than my body progress. Therefore i'm here again to updates about my skin. 

You know what, i was trying to google about my name last few weeks. The moment when i type "Karen Kho" on the search column, it comes out "Karen Kho Blog", "Karen Kho Instagram" and "Karen Kho Acne" lol….As i know, everyone is well-known in something, i tried to search someone else in google it came out  XXX plastic surgery…so mine is "ACNE" huh… hahahahha! At least i'm 'famous' in something, my acne problem! Am i suppose to be happy or what? LOLLLL!

I'm writing this again because i know a lot of people out there facing the same problem with me. For all the people who are suffered badly. Lack of confident, stressed, depressed, feeling lost like what i've experienced before. But i'm so so so glad my skin is getting so much better now compare to last time! Here's a photo of my current condition. zero makeup, only sun block (That's why you can see my dark circle is pretty obvious, like a panda)

Thanks GOD i can finally go out without applying thick foundation on my face,like finally…
Only scars and some light redness left. I'm looking for solution to heal it too…

Btw, I've stopped visiting Dr.Ting & stopped taking Roaccutane for more than a month. So far, my skin never get worst or something, no more breakout at the moment..Phewwwww. I stopped because i've been really busy past few months, don't have time for visiting doctor. I will visit the doctor again when i free cause i need some advice from him too, regarding the scars treatment.

FYI, if you don't know how serious is my skin before this. Have a look with this photo. I'm really really sorry if i scare you off or makes you feel uncomfortable with my photo, but it's just something that i wanted to share with you guys. You should be thankful if you don't have problem like this, but if you are.. don't lose hope cause i didn't. It takes a lot of patient, so be patient & tough.

Took this photo last year during JAN/FEB, i don't really remember the exact time. It's quite serious, but not VERY...for me. Cause there's a time IT IS WORST than this X10000 times.. LOL (I still have all my skin progress photo if you guys are interested to see,LOL)

对不起如果把你吓坏了，它的确是这么恶心的。你们看到的只是照片，但是曾经我每天照镜子的时候看到的就是这张这么恶心的脸在我脸上。你知道那有多折磨吗？

As you see, there's still a lot of active acne and a lot of blackhead and whitehead. I had a lot of white head around my mouth area, i don't know why. It's super super hard to extract, no matter how hard i try….squeeze until the blood also come out, it's still there. LOL.

No matter how much foundation/concealer/powder i apply, nothing can be cover.

Here's a closeup photo of my skin after makeup during 2013

这是上了妆后的脸，还是很多凹凸不平的黑头白头和痘痘。这样脸维持了差不多2年，每天这能化妆出门…虽然应该不要化妆，但是那么严重怎样不化妆出门呢？痘痘也不是我想要的，可以发生在我身上我又能怎样呢…有谁不要美美的皮肤啊？

Another photo of my face after makeup. You can still see the pimples. 

That's the reason why..my whole personality changed. Trust me, it was a hard process and I still struggle with it from time to time. I feel like a freak, i hate it when people stare/look at my face, i'm afraid people might get disgusted with me... I cried, I feel very uncomfortable, pain...I became a very very anti-social, depressed, low-esteem, i don't talk much to people i'm not close with, i hide inside my home, i gave up a lot because of these. It is the most painful time of my life.

在这个什么都以貌取人的现实世界里...其实面对这样的问题是，真的什么自信心都没有了。如果你没有经历过，你是不会明白那种感觉的。每天不敢出门，不敢正视人家，不敢让人家仔细看清楚，很害怕别人嫌弃自己..因为自己看自己都那么讨厌了，还有谁会喜欢啊？曾经皮肤这样的时候真的什么都不想做，只是在那里急急急..不知道几时才变好。但是其实这样是错的，皮肤这样是要时间康复的，要有耐心，而且在等待皮肤好转的当儿可以去做别的有效率的东西比如健身之类的。因为我的mindset是，没有美美的样子也要练个好身材，哈哈哈。但是很庆幸经过了1－2年皮肤真的好转了，虽然还没完全康复但是还是也很庆幸自己想通了（这比一切都重要），熬过了那么多。当我低潮的时候常常会告诉自己，这只是一个考验，爱我的人自然会爱我..不要放弃自己，努力做好自然有人会看到的。如果你身边有一个面临皮肤问题的朋友记得要给他／她支持和鼓励，因为他们最需要的就是身边的人不离不弃。

But still, I have come to accept myself for who I am. I'm so thankful i manage to correct my mind from being negative. I know how acne KILLS your confidence and self esteem cause i've experienced it. Anyways, the point I wanted to make on here is we have to keep on living. It's just a obstacles to make us stronger. Yes, it is true that some people look at our face and get disgusted.. but it's ok.. People who love you will love you for who you are. 

Honestly, people with acne are some of the strongest people out there. We face the world when all we want to do is hide, we struggle EVERYDAY with a negative self image but we still manage to live. 

好了今天就分享到这里，迟点会再分享我护肤品跟治疗心德。哈哈，说到这个真的可以讲3天3夜都说不完的..所以还是到此为此好了。有什么问题可以comment留言问我，我会一一解答。

Alright, that's all for today. I will blog about the skin treatment i did and skin care i used now soon.

Do leave me a comment down below if there's any question or request, thanks! 

STAY TUNED for me next post :)

Thanks for reading this long long post * xoxo

首先来张今天拍素颜照来吓吓你们。

我知道很多朋友都很关心我的皮肤的进展，不好意思，让你们久等了＊哈＊

无可否认，以前我是个又懒惰又不爱自己的女生。什么护肤品我都懒得用，只是随随便便洗个脸就算了。自从得了皮肤问题以后，我真的败给“它”了。我的生活，人格，情绪，一切一切都来个360度大转变。我曾经伤心过，愤怒过，颓废过，放弃过，自信心跌到谷底因为皮肤越变越严重。但是内心的我还是不甘心，想做点东西来补救，于是我去美容院，看医生，试了无数的产品...但是还是无补于是，皮肤时好时坏的..真折磨。今年年头的时候接到了一个Sponsors,讲要帮我医好我的脸的，当时的我当然要咯！因为毕竟我都花了好多好多钱在皮肤上，当时有医生要救我当然快快答应了。怎知道，脸比以前更严重了，还蔓延到右脸都张一大堆大粒的痘痘，当时真的快疯了！所以我stop了sponsors就找别的医生救我(T . T)

好了，是时候报告情况

我目前在Jln Imbi的 Dr.Ting治疗，已经差不多半年了。

听说很出名的，我还特地一早8.30am到那里拿号码。所以要去记得make appointment.

虽然还没有完全康复，但是明显好很多了。以下时Before & After

很多人说西医有负作用，但是我可以告诉你，这是最快的方法阻止痘痘蔓延。

因为当它变本加厉时，真的很恐怖，还会留很多疤痕。所以我很怕，我选择了看西医。

因为我要“快”！

不过坦白说，这是治标不治本的。因为我做了很多Research,痘痘是很多原因导致的。

有可能是因为吃东西不健康，脾气不好，熬夜，压力，肮脏，护肤品不对，这些种种的原因导致的。西医的药可以快速的帮我们阻止它蔓延，等它受控制后，我们还是要调好自己的生活习惯才可以，不然迟早”它”还是会复发的。所以我现在的Planning就是，先看西医，等痘痘受控制后再Try中医调好身体。

在Dr.Ting那里，每两个星期打一次针。是打整个脸的暗疮部位，你能想像我挨了多少针吗？哈哈哈，不过我习惯了，而且也不会害怕，因为那真的很好，大个有浓的痘痘只要一打针，第二天就不痛，干掉，再多一天就掉了。有没有很厉害？(^○^)

告诉你，曾经最严重的时候是这样！没错！是这样！

你能想像有多痛吗？老天爷还真残忍，怎么忍心这样对一个女生？

Skin Care方面呢，越简单越好。我只用一个医生给的Cleanser，toner还有擦的就是一个痘痘的，一个Scars的，一个给嘴唇不要那么干的（因为吃Roaccutane嘴唇会一直脱皮）

上次PO了我的皮肤状况后，很多人介绍我产品，我不是很相信，因为每个人的皮肤不一样，适合他们不表示适合我。所以我还是相信天然的东西比较可靠，而且一定不会有负作用。

痘痘要靠药物控制它长出来，至于那些红印我都会用芦荟来敷脸。
方法很简单，只要有芦荟，把它放在冰箱，每早睡醒切一小片..然后拿那个汁涂在脸上就可以了。但是，要有耐心哦！不要expect敷1－2次就有效果，要长期治疗的。我也是持续了好几个星期才看到红印有变淡。所以很开心！一定到分享分享！＼(^o^)／

除此以为我偶尔会用这个敷脸，是朋友介绍的。我觉得蛮不错的，也能帮组减少Redness还有补充水分。试过好多次了，不会刺激皮肤。有皮肤问题的朋友可以试试看。

我朋友在卖，可以联络line : chenellewen

不好意思又让你们的眼睛受苦了，哈哈。

在此来个骗人的照片吧！(^O^)

前一阵子我还真的很低落，可能真的累坏了，但是今天心情好多了，终于有mood写blog了。

我想说，我很不幸运..我那么不完美。但我不会放弃，我不会认输的！

我会不断努力让自己变好，努力改变，努力健身练个好身材！

所以希望有跟我一样遭遇的朋友不要放弃，要保持好心情，“它”会好起来的！

千万要让这些讨厌的坏东西把你击倒！加油！

全世界的人都可以放弃我们，否定我们，但是我们绝对不能放弃自己，知道吗？

加油吧 朋友们 (⌒-⌒; )

期待我的Fitness posts的朋友们，不好意思，我刚刚才有时间回去做Gym,。

目前还在朝另一个目标努力。有时间会再多PO一点咨询的大家。

Don't forget to follow my blog, Good Night :)

HELLO EVERYONE, how's your weekend?

It's SUNDAY and i'm staying in today, not going anywhere. So i came up with this topic to blog.
I guess most of you all know that my skin are having a terrible breakout right?

Here's the link of my previous acne post :

http://www.karen-kho.com/2013/06/im-here-to-answer-why.html

Alright, today i'm gonna freak everyone out with my face *ugly but it's the truth*

You know what, acne is something that can really KILLS all the confidence. You don't know how much i've suffered because of this. No one could understand. I'm here to show you how terrible it is. Can you see there's HUGE pimples all over, and ugly redness and scars. Can't even put makeup on my face that time. It's really terrible and pain. Emotionally, physically pain.

Yes, i'm ugly... very ugly.. i had pimples and scars all over my face.. sometimes i feel like a freak..
That's the reason why i don't really talk to strange people and don't even say "HI" with people.
Whenever i saw people i know, i will just try to HIDE as far as possible. LOL! I'm tired of answering the same question again and again. Seriously stop asking me .."Ehh,what happen to your face?"

Btw, Here's a photo of my skin condition months ago. Surprise?
这个是几个月前的照片，严重到一种地步，又肿又痛的。折磨死我了。
完全不能化妆，不能出门，出门只能戴口罩。

I know there are a few people out there facing the same problem with me. Just wanna tell you, don't give up on yourself. You're not alone. My skin is worst than yours. HAHA. Faster figure it out how to heal it before it get worst like mine. I'm stubborn and lazy, that's why it's "that serious"...

But luckily it gets better now since i visited Dr.Ting for 2-3 months. The acne injection is really good. My huge pimples dried the next day after injection. The injection is hurt, but it worth! I'm taking medicine too, to control the breakouts. I'm having Roaccutane and some antibiotic medicine, the medicine is kinda strong. I dropped a lot a lot a lot of hair everyday, seriously. But i don't think i care about that, because i just want my breakout to stop! That's all i want, i'm tired of suffering with all these pain.

Alright, I'm here to reveal it once again.. in my video this time. It's getting better now, no more breakouts, just scarring. Need to wait and see how it goes..then only i can know what's up next. LOL!

I'm not trying to do a make up tutorial, just wanna show you all how i cover my acne skin.

Yes, i know there are people will criticize me, asking : Why are you still putting on makeup on your face? bla bla bla... But...Seriously, i wish I DON'T HAVE TO! You never know how these stupid acne can ruined someone. Take away your confidence, mood, mind everything...

That's why...
These are my life saviour whenever i need to go out. I'm not using any concealer, just foundation/ sun block and after that compact powder to cover up the redness.Seriously, i hate putting on makeup on my face, i really wish i could have a clear skin and go out with my naked face "one day".....

I don't know how many bad comments there will be after i posting this blog up. Just wanna say, i'm feeling sad for my face too, I've suffered a lot a lot a lot because of these stupid acne and scarring. You don't know how much acne can ruined a people's life, breaks a people's confidence, torturing me mentally and physically...but WHAT TO DO? It just happened on me, it just happened! Stupid acne picked my face! There's nothing i can blame, what i can do is just stay strong, try not to ruined myself even worst, and try to be positive. 

Since the day my skin having breakouts very worst, I've tried not to putting on thick makeup on my face, trying to reduce makeup and keep it clean. I'm not sure whether it helps or not..cause i see no different between "more makeup" and "less makeup" on my skin. LOL! But seriously, cosmetics is really my life saviour. Its gave me at least "a Lil" confidence, because its cover up some of my flaws. I'm not saying that you should put makeup to cover up your acne and scars, but i'm just showing you all how i cover it whenever i NEED to put makeup on.

I've been telling my friends all about my skin problem I'm having now. But they don't really belief it until i show them a picture of my pure naked face. 101% of them get shocked when they saw my picture, and they asked : OMG, seriously? that's you? ARE YOU SURE? ...... 

Yes, no one knows how terrible my skin is behind these makeup. Yes, that's why I want to show you how i transform my acne skin in this video. It's a bit long, because it's my first "makeup video"... don't really know how to edit it.. never really crop it..But I'm still fast, finish my makeup...everything in less than 10 minute. LOL!

Are you ready? Don't play it if you scare seeing ugly stuff. LOL

要有心理准备，因为素颜＋痘疤很吓人我知道。

每次跟人家讲起我脸的问题都没有人相信，因为他们没有见过素颜的脸。Even,我拿我素颜的照片给他们看了，他们还是很惊讶的问：是你吗？！....为什么看不出来？还有些人会说："哇，如果我是你，我会想死咯! "Errrrrrr...那我是不是应该死了几千年？....没错，化妆盖了部分的瑕疵，今天我上传这个短片让大家看看我怎么化妆, LOL! 我知道我应该不要化妆的，可是我以经尽量减少了，只是有时逼不得已才会化点妆。我知道我很丑，希望大家不要被吓坏。Just Sharing........

我用了好多勇气才把这个上传上来，以前很怕人家看到我素颜，不知道从几时开始 很爱给人家看我的痘痘脸。可能是因为憋在心里太久了，好想给身边的人知道 不想再拿照片跟妆容骗人把！哈哈哈！因为我不能收秘密在心里，很辛苦，讲出来舒服多了。脸上的痘痘跟痘疤折磨我很久了，每天只能拿化妆品遮盖，真的很累。我真的很想不用化妆出门，其实我不是很介意，可是人家看我的眼神我真的有点受不了，自信心很受创，再加上有些熟人看到又会问一些有的没的问题，懒得回答。长痘痘没有人想的。

以前的我真是身在福中不知福，每天吵要整容。现在我什么都不想要，只想皮肤快点好起来就可以了。哈哈哈！自从上次我post了那篇文章后，很多人inbox,email, 还有留言给我。有很多人介绍我产品啊，美容院，医生啊，等等的。我真的有点眼花缭乱，难道我每个都要去尝试吗？每个人的皮肤不一样，长痘痘有很多不同的原因导致的。然而，我还是想谢谢你们的好意，我现在在看着一个医生，虽然还没完全康复，但我相信会好起来的，只是需要时间，我也在努力奋斗。康复是需要时间的，我不想好像以前那样，看医生看到一半又停了，结果脸一直都好不起来。在治疗这段时间，我又打针又吃药的，好了很多，至少没有新的痘痘了，痘疤就要等它完全受控制了才能治疗。到时候才打算把，现在做好自己本分。

其实，很多时候很想痛哭一场，狠狠的埋怨为什么偏偏是我要受这样的苦。可是，认真想想，这样又能改变什么事实呢？倒不如想想办法如何补救，做好自己不是更好吗。

温性提示：如果你有跟我一样的问题，最好快点去接受治疗。看看是什么原因导致的，因为越早治疗越好，不然好像我这样留疤痕了不好看 (T ^ T) 

好了，分享完毕。对不起如果把你吓坏了。

只想给你们看看实的我，并不是那么完美的。哈哈！

by imperfect ugly girl ❤

Thanks to those irresponsible human that causes all these haze in our country. The air quality is terrible out there, can't even go to the gym...Seriously, it's so so so hazy out there. Thick haze, no joke! Barely breath and my eyes feeling dry and itchy *irritating max* Can't believe that it's happening, from country to country.. Can you believe that? It is very very very serious, can't even see the sun, the haze cover up the entire sky....LOL.. Awwwww, pity our lungs, i'm sure there's a lot of "dust' in it now...Dear all, remember to wear mask, drink more water and turn on your air purifier! Try to avoid to go out, better stay at home and read my blog. AHAHAHAHA :P

Well, actually today i'm not here to blog about the haze. I'm here to express my feeling out, been stuck in my heart for quite some time. It's related to my skin. Yes, my skin problem again, yes AGAIN! I'm not afraid to show you how ugly i am behind all these makeup... There's nothing to hide about.. LOL! If you read my blog, you'll know that i'm having a serious breakouts on my face for quite some times already. My skin got worst after consulting a skin clinic, so i changed to another skin specialist now which is Dr.Ting. BUT, i guess my skin is too SERIOUS, too TERRIBLE, too HORRIBLE already.. It takes time to recover... Sigh......

I know i have to be patient and be positive, but i'm a human being.

When things get bad, i will just lose control with my emotion. That's normal right...
It's like this, tell me how to stay positive?

My "santa claus" look, this is a after photo of acne injection in Dr.Ting.

Yes, acne injection ON THE FACE... did these every two weeks. That's the 3/4 times dy..

It's hurt but worthy, cause at least it helps to kill the bacteria & breakouts.. 

我常常问我自己，为什么要受这样的苦？要多久才会康复，就算好了也会有疤痕之类的。

我小小的心灵也很受创啊啊啊  .....我只能说：我也不想的。

I skipped all the event, outing, shooting, job because of my skin. Okay, what i wanna say is.. there's a reason why am i doing so. It's really serious, ugly.. not much people knowing this because picture can't tell.. The "soft skin mode" cover up everything. In fact, it's really serious.. redness and scars on my cheek, upper lips and lower lips. It's not that i don't want to go out... People don't know how serious it is, they thought that i'm just lansi or whatsoever. LOL! But i'm NOT okay.. 

It's really hard to face people like that... You understand? 

I'm a tough girl, but this is one of my weakness *tears*

除此以外，一见到一些很久没有见的朋友都会问我：wtf, what's happening to your skin?

Or Where've you been? why your skin like that? or 做莫你脸这样烂了？以前滑滑的 or 哇，你很大压力啊？or 喂，以前很漂亮，为什么搞到这样啊 bla bla bla.....this and that....

ARGHHHHH, i'm seriously tired with all these questions. 

I don't know how to answer. Let me just answer everyone here. 

People, do you actually understand my situation? What you expect me to say? Hmmm...

哦，没有啦。。就烂了咯。。哈哈哈哈 and then end of the conversation awkwardly. LOL! 

其实我真的很不想回答，也不知道怎么回答。

我只能说，我也不想的啊。（—.—）

我是个女生。如果你没有皮肤问题，你不会明白我的感受。试问，有谁喜欢脸上长豆豆留疤痕？先别说整脸，长一粒大粒的都痛得要命 更何况我那么严重。你知道有多痛吗？人家只会叫我不要化妆, 这个那个的....可是请问不化妆怎么出门？我也有自尊的好吗...我也想不用化妆出门啊啊啊！可是脸这样我想吗？运动又做了，医生又看了，生活习惯也改了，什么产品都试过了，还能怎样你告诉我。

再看回以前素颜的脸我的心比任何人都痛。

我知道，再也回不去了。现在能做的，就是等待奇迹出现，有可能吗？＊哈＊

脸啊脸，请问几时可以让我好起来

我哭也哭过了，痛也痛过了，受也受够了。

饶了我吧 ＊哭＊

Why am i posting this up? because i'm tired of keeping everything inside.

Let me share everything out, sorry if i scare you off with my ugly face LOL! 

Please allow me to be emo.. 

*signing off & hide inside my blanket*

Acne is a embarrassing and burdensome problems for everyone. I guess a lot of you didn't know that how bad is my skin,cause i always covered it with make up.My skin *total damage* since last two years,acne breakout constantly on my cheeks and upper lips.I really lost all my confident since the day my skin got worst,can't really face myself that time.I tried to consult skin specialist,it does helps a lil by eating medicine they provides.But still,when i stop,its comes back and left my face a lot a lot of scars :(

You know what,make up is clogging our pores and will cause us blackhead and pimples. I started to putting on make up when i was 15. THE WORST PART IS.... i didn't know that i have to remove make up in a proper ways. I used wet tissue to wipe it off and a normal foam cleanser to clean my face only! * BIGGEST MISTAKE EVER* Till the day i saw my friend removing her make up with Shu Uemura cleansing oil,then only i started to remove my make up in a right way! 

HAHAHAHAHA forgive me .I'm lack of knowledge.

I think that's one of reason why my face become that worst ! 

But thanks God,it's getting better now,no more pimple popping out,just scars. It takes time to heal,i know :( Now i went for facial every 10-15 days,just to control the breakouts. And i'm so happy it is improving. Not to say that i have a beautiful skin now,but at least it's improving,not that serious anymore. hehehehehehehehe :D

Here's the skin care that i adore.Cleansing is IMPORTANT,never leave your face with make up before you go to bed. Even if you are putting zero make up on your face,you still HAVE TO clean it with milk cleanser. I'm using ShuUemura cleansing oil previously. Changed to Laneige after i finish the whole bottle. But i still thinking Shu Uemura is better,will buy a new one after this.

 After the cleaning part, here comes my daily skin care products. Price is not the problem if it is efficient but It's really hard to find a suitable one. Someone recommend CELLNIQUE to me and i found it quite suitable for my skin,so i continue using it.

The sebum gel is really powerful. It helps to soften the pore so that the blackhead can come out easily after 7-10days using the products. The Whitening essence is to balance the uneven skin tone and lighten the scars. Just started to use it for a week. The left one is for hydrating,nothing special. And another one is for pimples,i didn't use it anymore cause it's all heal. Just scars i need to take care of. LOL!

I'm a big fans of ORIGINS last time,Brought all their mask. But doesn't help a lot on my problem skin.
I'm a super lazy person. That's why i brought Laneige night mask,just apply a tiny layer all over the face and go to sleep. Just to quench my skin's thirst. LOL! The first time i using it is really effective,but now i didn't see much different already. *don't know why*

I will do mask few times a week,cause i did not drink much water. My skin is really dry most of the time. And i found this Bio-cellulose mask is really really useful,but it is quite cosy. It's different from the others mask i've used,This enhance the absorption of essences effectively.

Do you know our body needs the right nutritional balance besides proper skin care. A friend of mine introduce this Health products to me,She gave it to me last few weeks. And i found it really really useful. My scars do lighten after 5-6days. So i brought another few boxes from her. LOL! Anyone who interested to get one can contact me at karenkho@live.com 

Lamor is rich with Hyaluronic-acid,collagen,Vitamin C and Silk Amino Acid. All these can helps to rehydrate our skin,restore skin elasticity,wound healing,life sagging skin and ligten dark spots.

I really experienced this,that's why i said it's useful :D

Besides that,i brought myself bird nest. My girl friend said it's good for skin so i brought it. HAHA,i really spent a lot to save my skin you know? Hopefully it will fully recover *pray hard*

Here's my naked face if you interested to see. I took a lot of courage to post this up. Without drawing my eyebrows is really pale i know. I wanted to do eyebrow embroidery so badly. Btw,obviously there are still scars on my face,i'm working hard to heal it already,give me some times. It is healing pretty fast already actually,before this is really worst. You won't want to see it. *seriously scary * you will suicide if that happened to your face,LOL! I'm very tough already,trying hard not to kill myself every time when i see my bad skin condition.HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

All of us love flawless skin,so don't be lazy! If not you will regret like me.

 Work hard for it and maintain !  Cheers! :D